New Goal: (March 2011)

Pick up printed headshots from managers office and drop them off at Maverick Artists Agency. Have Kim send me the LA casting and other casting website profile information. Additionally, update Actors Access profile with two additional photos. Continue attending John Penney’s acting workshop for the month of March.

Submit Verbal Disclosure’s “Talking About” track to Schuller, Steve S. and Maverick Artist. Continue Verbal Disclosure’s projects—(Rabbit Hole video,  It wasn’t me (parody) and Carefully Constructed.) 

They're just butterflies

The uncertainty of new territory has it’s way of jump starting the nerves, some people like the feeling, some people don’t and I have to admit, I’m not one to cozy up to the unsettling sensation that stirs in your stomach. I guess my discomfort really stems from the idea of not having any control or not being able to foresee whether the path I’m on has a successful destiny.

My manager, Kim Matuka has let me know that I will be represented by Maverick Artists Agency, which is very exciting and scary at the same time. I just wonder sometimes if I’m capable of handling what comes at me. Instead of worrying I should simply let go of my own self-doubts and start looking at the great opportunity I’ve been given. Instead of contemplating the if’s and buts’, I just have to tell myself that they’re just butterflies and if I’m following my dreams, that should be enough to counter the unsettling feeling.  

Money where my mouth is

My entries tend to revolve around the idea of taking chances and really going after what you want in life. Letting that light in your eyes meet tenacity, dedication and focus is a perfect way to get through the obstacles and brick walls that try to derail an honest effort. If you’re willing to put in the work, there’s no reason that you should settle for anything less then what you are capable of.

With that said my credibility wouldn’t be much unless I practiced what I preach and displayed what I’ve been working on.  

MUSIC:

I make up ½ of the group, VERBAL DISCLOSURE! Logan--the other half, creates amazing beats and great flows and we put together some nice sounding music. We've been working for two and half years and I feel that we have really progressed from where we were when we first started. Of course, we still have a long way to go but making the effort and putting in the work is where it counts. We currently have a new song out, “Talking About” and we have a few more tracks on the way- an acoustic piece, a great parody and an ode to Westwood. In addition, we are working on a video for “Rabbit hole.” We are excited for everyone to see and listen to everything we are working on. Here are a few songs for your listening pleasure.

In the solo music realm:

I have been reworking an acoustic track, “Down and Out.” It will soon see the light of day on YouTube. 

Below is a song, In the Sun, created with the very musically talented Adam Hurley. 

ACTING: 

I have great management which has allowed me to go on some great auditions.I had a close call on booking a film, “Bonded” with Pierce Bronson. Read the script—it was a great script and read for the director/writer Mohit Ramchandani, unfortunately, they went with someone else. Life is still good! I also recently auditioned for, “Glee” also no success. However, that has prompted me to go back to my roots—new headshots and starting an acting class again. I’m very excited and ready to work as hard as possible so I can book movie or television show by the end of year. I know that it’s a tough industry crack but I’m ready to start opening doors if people don’t want to let me in.

Question: Just curious, what are some of your goals and what are you doing to make those goals a reality?

One leap

I’ve kept myself near a ledge looking over, attempting to see whether there is a field of mattresses waiting to catch me on my adventure down, but it’s too far to make any real assessment on whether the landing will be a safe one. The only comfort and motivation for my free fall comes in the form of hope and faith that during the leap I’m able to find what I’ve been looking for.

The thought of diving head first into unknown territory certainly produces a level of anxiety. Naturally, taking such chances enhances feelings of apprehension; especially when certain outcomes carry there share of consequences. The thought of irreversible consequences alone keeps us at bay or at the ledge and paralyzes us from seeking something outside of the comfortable. Damn that fear to hell because we are so much better than that and carry so much potential inside of us, it’s because of fear that some people never let their full potential see the light day.

If there is an urge to engage in an adventure or you have a dream, let yourself fall in the direction of your dreams or that adventure. If in the process of our adventure we encounter a hurdles of some sort, we still have the power of making choices to overcome these hurdles.We just have to believe in ourselves and know that we are capable human beings, we may have allowed fear based limitations to prevent us in our past but they don’t have to follow us the rest of the day or tomorrow, we have a choice to make our leaps with an open mind and absorb everything as they come, without any preconceived notions or assumptions.

We are certainly deserving of greatness, sometimes all it takes is a leap in the direction of our dreams, it doesn’t matter whether we land soundly, all that matters is that we believe in ourselves to take that one leap.

Desert Sunset

Brick walls

After a great effort traveling down the path you've been on and the majority of your energy reserves nearly expended, you approach a brick wall; how do you deal with the obstruction blocking you  from your desired path? Do you:
A) Turn around and head back in the direction from where you came
B) Find away to climb over the obstruction
C) Set up camp and try again later.
Or D) Other...please elaborate

As of late, I've had a tendency of picking A, and if you are like me, you may also be thinking what a waste to come so close and then retreat because of exhaustion,  especially when what's on the other side is more rewarding considering the great effort that was put forth to get there. Trying to re-frame this mentality is difficult but I guess I've vouched that upon reaching another brick wall I will think, this brick wall was placed here to remind me how badly I wanted what's on the other side. So in my mind I've decided, I only want there to be one option, to fight on and find a way to climb over the things obstructing me from getting to my next goal.