Live out loud

People unintentionally lead us to realize things about our self that we completely overlook or choose to overlook. In the past few weeks, I’ve had three people, unbeknownst to them; remind me about my recent introverted and timid stance in respect to things that I want. Perhaps, I needed to hear it from different aspects of my life for it to finally sink in.  

As of recent, I’ve taken a passive stance on things that I want so badly; it just seems like holding on to preserve the idea of something wanted is better than not having it at all. Typically, I am or at least I use to be very organized and would do everything by the book so all would go as planned. By having a sense of control on as many aspects of my life, it’s as if I could take accountability for all my failures. Of course, accountability for our actions and choices is completely reasonable and healthy; it becomes problematic when we start taking accountability for things that we can’t control. Life happens, we can control our actions but we can’t control the actions of others, taking disappointment, failure and frustration personally has a way of making that roar inside of us settle into a whimper.

I was someone who let my roar become a whimper and these people showed me that it’s okay to live life out loud, it’s okay to let go and not to hold on to something wanted so much, it’s okay to hurt when things don’t go as planned, it’s okay feel like you’ve earned or that you deserve something, it’s okay to be happy, it’s okay to be who you are, it’s okay to live the life that you want.

As trite and cheesy as it may sound, today 1.11.11, I’m starting over and although I’m scared I don’t want to let anymore fires in my eyes die because of fear, judgment or my own insecurities There’s no excuses great enough to justify why you let potential collect dust on the shelf---so it’s time to relight the light inside of me and you.

Thank you!

P.S. Keep following those dreams